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Wednesday, October 15
*Sobz*
another day of rotting and crying...
i just couldn't bring myself back to original life...
just couldnt stop thinking of her and our past...
tried to play game,but i just have no mood to do so...
i'm like crying all the while...even my dog will lie down on my lap...think he's trying to comfort me...wan me to cheer up...i dunno...
dunno whether there'll be another chance...
but anyway hope she takes care of herself...
and if she ever goes with that guy,i'll never forgive myself...
its me who caused all these unhappiness...
dunno when will i ever see her again...or maybe this may be the last time i'll be blogging...i really dunno...i promised her that i'll be strong...but i cant do it...
i'm not trying to make her guilty...but its just the truth...
she is rather my chu lian(first love)...
it's her who brought me into a real relationship...
for the past,all my ex's...i had never cried for them before...joomin is the first girl i cried for...i din know wats call love...now that i've lose joomin,i finally realised wat is love...i dunno y,the moment i think of her,my tears will start to flow out...
if i am given another chance,i wouldnt let it slip off again...
listen to Nicky Wu - Yan Huo...its really a song that describes my feelings now...
but no one will understand my feelings...haiz...
people may laugh at me...thinking that i brought all these to myself...
i admit it,i brought them to myself...i have only myself to blame...
i really wan her to know...
i'm here waiting,alwaz...
god loves ya
Tuesday, October 14
haiz...did a damn foolish thing yesterday,that is to ask ron not to sms her anymore...
regretted doing it...but its too late for regrets...coz of this,i dint slp for the whole nite...now like panda...plus my eye bags are Woo~!...
went to meet her just now...waited for her at 6.20pm at her hse downstairs,
waited till 7.25pm,then she showed up...i never complain wor...hehe...getting more and more patient le...wat to do,i wan this relationship back...so i must work hard to change...hehe...
tok abt whether we can get this relationship back,ended up with tears...both of us cried...she told me that she still have feelings for me...so now i really have to show her that i've changed...coz i wan her back...i'll just treat her jie meis as a test.i will have to pass this test...if not they will continue to discourage her...she helped me wipe my tears...which eventually made me cry out loud...
actually never cry de...is when i asked for a hug...then ended up crying like nobody's business...omg...i wet my own shirt for the first time...we promised each other to be strong,and ask her to take good care of herself...all these lead to tears...
after that i see her home...then i went to Rivervale Mall,watsons,to buy tissues for her...also went NTUC to buy some snacks for her...coz i know her money wont be on food...so i have to buy some snacks for her to put at home...she must maintain round round de...yang ta yang le almost 4 yrs le...kekeke...
after buying all those things...i ended up with $1.35...went to 4 leaf to buy a Healthy Tuna Bread...hahaha...thats my dinner...ke lian?
not at all...wei le this relationship,this is nth...i'm gonna work harder...
she told me to give her some time,so i did...anyway i think i also need time to change...but anyway,i'll be waiting for her to come back to me...
Thanks to my classmates and buddies...thank u for encouraging me to work hard to get her back...
Ger...
Please Bear In Mind That I'm Here Waiting For Your Return...
Love Alwaz,
Sherman
god loves ya
Monday, October 13
*sobz*
now its depending on time to tell whether she'll come back to me...
i really hope she will...i really scared that some people will chen xu er ru during this so called 1 week of separation...
haiz...wat can i do but wait patiently...but if she really fall for another person during this 1 week,i'll never forgive myself and i will wish her all the best...which i hope will not true...
i was the 1 who refused to accept her back that day,she cried till so ke lian...i wanted to hug her...but i just dunno y i never...when i was about to hold her...she walked away...wat can i say?!?!!
i'm just dumb! dunno how to treasure a girl like her...i dun think i can find anyone better than her...
i'll be waiting for her...i won't let anyone hurt her...
*sobz sobz*
now that i'm determined to change,i wanna treat her friends as mine...i wont mind if she's with them...
then suddenly pop out another guy...wat can i say...haiz
this guy msg her on the day we broke up...maybe he also like joo...i dunno...
i dunno where the hell he get her no. from...but that person who gave it out really have no manners...
i cant say anything now...coz i know i must trust joo...i know she wont fall for him...
hope that guy will zhi dong and give up,if he really intend to woo her...
he will get to nothing even if he continues to sms her or call her...
just hope that joo will come back to me after this 1 week...
now i'm in the lab...everyone is doing their assignments...
but i have no mood to do...before this we went to eat...
i ordered a plate of rice...but i just simply couldnt finish it...i really have no appetite...
though my stomach is growling...but i just cant put anything into my mouth...WHY?!?!?!
i'm so scared that i'll lose her...who can understand my feelings now????
*Sobz Sobz*
Joomin,I Love You...
I Really Do...I'll Do Anything You Say If You Come Into My Arms...
I'll Willing To Change For You & Our Relationship...
I'll Be Waiting For You...Please Come Back To Me.
Love Alwaz,
Sherman
god loves ya
Sunday, October 12
Oh Yea Oh Yea~!
finally back together loh~!
hahahahaha...WOOHOO~!
her frens and sisters are gonna be disappointed...
but dunno y she dun wanna let her friends know that we're together le...
but anyway,Liangyi,Ade,Julia,Emily,Gillian & etc...i promise u all...
i'm gonna treat her well...pls believe me...
i know u all not happy that i'm with her...but giv me 1 more chance...
i will make her the most fortunate girl...sorry that i hurt her in the past...but not now anymore...
god loves ya
Saturday, October 11
C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I've got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why
So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are
I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home
So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no
I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are
Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe
I didn't know
What to say
This time
I won't, this time
Then we can
Build our lives
Then we can
Be as one
I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me)
Oh yes you are
And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
god loves ya
Friday, October 10
*Sobz Sobz*
Guess Its Over...
Why did she became like that?
Its really the end i suppose...
Dun think she still treat me as her bf
after she got into TP,she changed...
maybe i'm too sensitive,but she really did...
now as from wat i know,maybe she dun love me anymore,she dun have me in her heart,no need to say,no more love for me...
wat ever it is,just hope she'll treat her next bf nicely...
and not be so cold towards him...
Guess her next bf will come from TP
she is a very easy going ger...so no doubt many guys will like her...
i already have a few guys in mind of who may be her next bf...
hope they'll treat her nicely too...
*Sobz Sobz*
even if she really say she'll stay with me also no use...
i'm not in her heart anymore...
and i guess there's no more love for me...
reading her blog tells me everything...
dunno y she seems so happy when ppl look at her...
normally in many incidents,
the way the female speaks that way = she have feelings for him
i dunno...i hope not...
but all i know is,its over~!
but 1 thing is for sure,
there'll alwaz be a slot for her in my heart!
god loves ya
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