Thursday, September 25
12:55 PM

yawnz...
long time never update liaoz...
no time ah...
exam and games...
hehehaha...

just finished reading some blogs...
SI BEI DISAPPOINTED!!!
my gf do everything also never tell me...
she has really changed too much...
i dunno whether she is still my gf...
i dun even know whether she still treat me as her bf now...
i dun feel anything~!
she is much more closer to her friends than to me...
i am her bf lehz...y cant she show me some respect?
her friend wanna sell ice cream,ask her along,she can agree to it...
I asked her not to go...then she can come up with so many excuses to prevent me from stopping her...
WHAT IS THIS?!?!?!?!
she can actually tell me that she is only going to see how is the job...
i lan lan...bo bian let her go...
since she is only going to see,so i ask her go for only an hour...
coz i dun wan her to be tired...coz all these house to house job is very tiring...
she told me see how first...
i never get a definite answer from her...
but u know what?
behind my back,she has actually promised people to work...
WTF~!
she lied to me coz of her friend...
she is alwaz so easily influenced...good things she dun learn,bad things she learn all!
all those watever "alaboosh", "ah pok" , "ah gong" and etc...
wat for she wanna learn all these?!?!?!
she really hurt me very deeply...
i wanted to give up this relationship...but i cant...i still love her...and i cant throw away this relationship...i cant do it!!!
going to 4 years already...and she did all these to me...
WHY MUST SHE LIE TO ME?!?!?!
y are her friends alwaz there to influence her?
will she ever get any GOOD friends?
instead of all these...
some that would teach her how to study and instead of all these nonsense...
she alwaz complain and say i dun giv her freedom...
but if she isnt so easily influenced,will i?
i really wanna ask her...
am i still her stead?
please give me some respect...
i know i had hurt her thousands of times...but i din wanted it...
i know i scolded her ^$%^!@&*!@ alot also...
but i dunno wat to do but scold...i just get too frustrated and sad that i cant do anything but to scold...
i cant hit her...
i already have high blood pressure oledi...
everytime i get angry...i feel like fainting...
sometimes even blackout...
i dare not tell her...
coz i dun wan her to worry
haiz...i know i've changed too...
but now i'm trying to change back oleid...
i changed to give in everytime we quarrel...its really not easy...
imagine just to say sorry when u are angry and sad...
that kinda feeling is so......undescribable...

i told my friends about all these...
that i dun feel her love anymore...
and she do things without thinking of me first...and without informing me...
she is much more closer to her friends...
she dun listen to me anymore...
she really made me feel that i'm not her stead...
my friend told me...there's only 3 reasons y gers are like that...
1:she is tired of this relationship
2:she dun love me anymore
3:she has another target in mind

I was so SCARED and SAD...i dun wanna lose her...
i dun wan her to give up this relationship...
i just dunno wat to do...
i tried to stop myself from thinking of all these by playing games all the time...keeping myself busy so that i wont think abt it...but i cant...
the moment i stop for a while,my tears will start to roll down...

just now...i called her,theres alot of people behind her...
of course there is,coz they just finished a lesson...
but the worse thing came after that...
heard her laugh suddenly...asked her why?
she said "they kick the ball at me..."
for this,it can make her laugh...wats so funny?
other girls can say "OIE,STOP IT LAHZ!"
but for her is "hahahahaha"
all these will make the GUYS think that they can make fun of her...
all these made me feel uneasy...
i know i may be over sensitive..
but dun she know how to "zi dong" ?
i'm really very disappointed...
she promised me that she wont hurt me again...
but i think its an empty promise...
haiz...
*Sobz Sobz*
i did promise her alot of things also...
some of it are also empty promises...
think its my fault,i taught her to become like this...
cant blame her for everything...just hope that she will try to change...
so that this relationship can continue on strongly..
i really dun wan it to end...

i know i'm a very sensitive person...
but its only for her that i will become so sensitive...
all my previous EXs...i dun think i did care or control them till like this...
but all these is because i love her more than everyone else...
dunno whether she feel it...

WHERE IS MY DEAR?!?!?!
GIVE ME BACK MY DEAR~!!!!!

god loves ya


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